The Secrets and All Lies

I never told this something hidden. And we act as human being, as always what we do today, tomorrow or even yesterday. Smiling and talking sometimes… about the unnecessary. But, you don’t know…

Once I walked passed through, to make me feel and realize, there was only you to play in my mind. That I was considering too much… confusing to dedide such choices.

Perhaps I never told you about this big secret. That I might become too obsessed of you; looking at you in silence, looking at you while smiling, just looking at the eyes by hiding a sencere feeling. And, you don’t know it

I crossed the line to be with you in my illusion. One more step to be closer, one more step to figure out what this is absolutely… you’ve become the one who put me under overthinking.

That I never told you… there are days for me to lie… disappear… and vanish. You were right in front of me, it was about right to begin a deep conversation. But you don’t know it

If you were seeing the rose have turned to be faded, that’s mine.

If you were looking at the uncontrolled wave around the beach, that’s my heart under anxiety attacks.

And if you could see this bright sky becomes to be cloudy… that’s how myself is going to be blurred by wishing off that you’d know too much

And here I stand, never telling you that this love has trapped for such a long time… years ago. I stand by the same feeling. I stand by the same hope. I’m standing and still delivering the same prayers.

That since you found nothing, I could barely understand why I should hide it away.

Every assumption takes the action within my head. Every assumption tells a contrary truthful. I… seem burying this love, as I could see no more chance to be reached as my true dream.

That you never know, your messages could bring me more calmness in the early morning. The messages full of unnecessary things — you keep talking and I take away my gloomy drizzle that is falling down from the above. All of this is because, I simply love you.

I never told you these secrets, and keep loving you inside my fearness. And I never told you that I’m worrying you more than him.

Even my view still stands behind. I just can’t still find the way how to tell you this true love.

Until now, and I don’t know… whether I still have much power to survive under this silent love.

A love that wants to land right in your heart.

You don’t know this… but I want you to realize it. Perhaps, someday… some other days… when the time is right.

Hamzah Street,

2014

— BREAKING REZA