She Loves Me
A short story by Breaking Reza
Humaira walks upon the beach sand. While holding a camera, her eyes keep staring to the right and left; she is looking around — put her eyes right to a man and woman who is sitting together on the sand. They are enjoying the calm sunset; sometimes that man is stroking the woman’s head which is covered by hijab — and this just makes Humaira smile a bit.
A couple minutes later, Humaira stops walking and begins to sit on the sand while keeping her eyes to the sun. Now, she is looking the photos from the camera that she took at the beach. While she is busy on her business, accidentally the girl turns her head to the back and see a man named Jey, whom is standing behind. He is smoking and keep being serious to enjoy the sun which is going to sink within less than 10 minutes to go.
Knowing Jey is behind, Humaira’s lips is like painting a beautiful smile on it. She is smiling since a man that known as a kind person is in the same place as her. So, she turns off the camera and calls that man.
“Jey…” Humaira says. This time, her eyes are opened wider as if the pleasure comes through.
“Oh, Humaira…” Jey replies. He walks calmly to be next to Humaira and then sit right beside her.
“Why don’t you told me that you’d come here too…?” Humaira asks, her lips is still smiling.
Before responding Humaira, Jey is also smiling and looking to her — on the other side, the girl is staring deep to Jey’s eyes, it makes the man feels amazed within some seconds. What Humaira does now have made him forgot to reply.
“Hey… why are you being silence?” Humaira asks.
Jey then shakes his head and answers, “what about you? You were not telling me as well that you’d come to this beach.”
Humaira is laughing, “well… perhaps we see each other because it’s a coincidental moment.”
“Well… maybe.”
Right after the unnecessary greeting, Humaira and Jey begins to talk about a serious thing. The girl keeps talking yet her eyes is not staring to Jey but to the front, right to the sunset. Beside, Jey does not want to miss a good moment to watch Humaira’s face in this close distance.
While listening to Humaira, Jey talks to himself, “if the moment would ever come… if the moment was about to be right… I know that I’m able to love you in this reality. Yet, all I can do is loving you within my imagination — this is the best way for me… for us.”
In some minutes later, tears are pouring off upon Jey’s eyes and wetting his face. Then, when Humaira stops talking, she looks over the man and suddenly covers her mouth by her right hand. This time, no words that come out from both of them unless they are just looking at each other.
After that, a moment later, Humaira leads herself to talk something. “Jey, I’m so sorry.” she says.
“No…” replies Jey, “it’s me — I’m sorry cause I love you and still keep loving you until this time. I know shouldn’t put myself beside you anymore — I know that I shouldn’t thinking much about you since that day — but it’s not that easy.”
“Jey… it was not your false; it’s just about the moment — I think it’s also about a person that you fall to… in this case is me. I know you are hurt right now because I can’t keep your feeling inside my heart. That’s why I wish you will find another girl — a right girl — she is loving you as you are. I know you need some times to leave me behind… in the end, it doesn’t matter… you will… I believe it. Jey… I’m sorry… if I didn’t fall to another man, so it must certainly I’d fall to you. But everything has happened, I just can’t betray him — yet I don’t want you getting hurt like this. This is why I pray for you — I will always pray the best for you, Jey.”
Jey then wipes off the tears; now he is not crying anymore and setting himself to be calm. Within seconds to go, the man is smiling and staring Humaira in the same time.
“Humaira, until you find your happiness, I will certainly find mine too. This time, let me loving you within my imagination since that is the only way where you and I could live together in the same feeling — no rejecting, no tears but full of joy. Through imagination, I might know how you say in front of me that you love me — it’s something that I’ll never gain in the reality. Sorry for this but — never I knew that actually my love to you is deeper than I guessed ever. Every time my heart beats, it’s like my heart beats while calling your name. And this has made me realized that how much I love you though we can’t be together. In the end, this is the reality between us — this is love between us. I’d never feel regret that I have fell right in you. A man never feels regret when he falls to a kind woman like you. So, tell me when the happines come upon, I will find mine as well.” Jey states.
The words which came out from Jey is suddenly makes Humaira cries. She cannot hold on the tears which are pouring her face. Even though she tries to wipe it off, yet the tears keep falling even harder.
Until then you find your happiness, I will certainly find mine too.
