Empty Room

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Starting now, I lost the light from your eyes which used to stare at me sincerely

Starting by now, I lost your smile that was used to be coloring a my fiction

Now, I have lost your ever name; a symbol of the beauty, a symbol that illustrated who you are

A bright night is darkened by the cold road, I try walking away to find the serene

A bright night lost its stars, can’t draw the light through the sky above

I’m walking a lonely road to be in the reality

And I push the wind storm that has stucked within… once again

These eyes avoid itself from gloomy — things that is seemed right in the front

And these eyes try giving another story — when I’ve trapped inside of empty

Now, you have disappeared from my view. And couldn’t see you again who used to sit across of mine.

Now, your reality has turned up becoming a fiction, you are no longer beside of me

The room was a place, a place that we were looking at each other beneath of short smiles

The room brought us under the same roof and made ourselves in silence

This room let me to be a man who adore you from the way how you rest the body on the chair

This room showed me how you drawn the beauty which was frozen me

And now, all I can see is the emptiness

I lost my sunrise

I lost my will

It pulls me under

When you go, you left me nothing unless — unless a deep empty hole. It makes me suffering from the inside as I can’t release this longing… you’re have been far away from me.

That I try looking for you in this room, there’s only a shadow — your pseudo-shadow.

And I never told you that I love you… I can never say it cause you are no longer in front of me.

All I can do is painting the illusion, making you real when you smiled as you ever did.

And all I can feel is regretting… because, when the time was here, I never told you the truth — you were blooming within my vein.

Tears express my feeling how this heart is screaming… calling your name. And you won’t hear it… no more, no more. So far away you are to accept my holy message.

Now, I lost you from this room. All I can feel is the loneliness.

If I could be in the old days… If I told you that I love you — before it’s all too late

Why do the time separate us?

Why do it have to be as this fast?

Now I don’t know how to release this deep longing — missing you a lot.

How it could be?

Why… why it should become the reality?

February 20, 2022