Disease attacks

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Since that first time I saw you:

I know why I keep your smile until this time

I know why I feel much more joy when I was beside you

I know why I love spending time just sit next to you, listening at whatever you express gradually

And I know why I keep looking at your eyes — I am addicting

Now…

Please fighting

For every pain suffering your health… for every pain attacking your soul… for every pain faded the smile on your lips

Now…

Please fighting

Because I recognize how you respect a lot… respecting your own life

You live while keeping to consume the medicine

You live and doing the efforts harder than before

You live this life to make sure you are still existing

“But now, please fight it more and more. The leaves beside you are about withered — they will bloom to coloring your side anytime”

Please fight and just avoid the word of “give up”. You are not meant to be under pressure.

That weak body pushes your soul in hoping

The weak body drags you feeling a deep dark of health

Your weak body leads you to be in front of the gate… the end of a gate

But again I beg… just fight it away

This far away I keep love that wants to come over you. And since the first time I understood your un-speak languange… I understand how you went through from suffering. And now… I know you can do it as you did once.

Getting tired of sending the prayers

Getting tired to whisper the beauty poems

Getting tired of your wounds

The scars which are within your body… I know how you are getting more tired to fight them away.

But I believe in you more than him. And I’ve put my trust over… this time I tell you again and again, “it is not because of your smile only, but I love you from the way on how you respect yourself… though you should face the pain… the very deep pain.”

And, putting my trust does not mean I accept your beauty… when I admit your disease, Awsya… this is what my love means for.

So keep breathing, keep existing… and keep smiling

When you feel the world is too cruel bringing you such pain… you know how to thank yourself.

And if someday you found you are at your final limitation… stop fighting and just be friemd with that pain.

You are what I can say as the symbol of respecting life

So please… live it… exist by your own way

I am watching you while creating poetry as poetic as I want… and all is about you.

All is because of you

-Since you know how to create such a tranquil feeling when no ones come over lending you their happiness-

— BREAKING REZA